It Changed Everything

IT CHANGED EVERYTHING 

Random, primal,
perilous is life,
I a spring leaf,
falling with the breeze,

Day of Chaos-adrenalin,
slashing strife,
Intense hidden desires,
No, NO, no, I wheeze,

Impossible,
shame,
self-destruction,
I lose,

Chains,
despair,
tears abound,
run, run, run

Love and desire,
too much I choose,
Bloody skin seeping,
sat I weeping in the sun,

Desiring life,
longing for love and honor,
Was a sudden insane flash,
and the loss of one,

befell the other,
no longer,
ever,
am I my father’s son,

This foggy frozen life,
cannot I endure,
My soul in chains,
hand with knife,

a foolish endeavor,
as the devil’s lure,
Yes I a dead, zombie,
goodbye sinful life,

Copyright © Jim Wiggins | Year Posted 2017 Poetry Soup, Updated 2020